Cerita dia, aku dah penat. Lelah. Letih. Lemah. Jadi tukang teman bila perlu. Jadi buangan bila jemu. Aku bukan adamantium. Tak luka bila dicucuk. Tak rebah bila di tembak. Tak ranap bila dirabak. Tak hancur bila dicampak. Sungguh, kalau ikut hati yang makin ranap. Terasa nak panjat dinding batu ampuh berderap. Walau kerikil besi tersadai sedap. Biar sama-sama ranap. Biar sama-sama rentap. Sungguh. Kalau aku mampu. Biar aku hilang takda kesan. Daripada hidup tertekan. Sungguh, aku matikan semua perhubungan. Aku tutup semua perasaan. Andai aku mampu. Tapi tidak. Aku lemah. Walau aku kata aku kuat. Walau aku kata aku mampu buat. Aku tipu. Sungguh aku tipu. Akulah manusia paling lemah. Iman dan perasaan. Hati dan badan. Sungguh. Kalau aku mampu, kenapa aku menangis? Kalau aku kuat kenapa aku tersedu-sedan? Kalau aku mampu buat, kenapa aku tersungkur setiap aku cuba buat? Tapi kau tak pernah faham. Dan takkan cuba faham. Sebab kau egomaniac. Yang keras kepala. Macam batu. Walau sepipih cuma. Sungguh. Kau degil. Tapi kau yang aku sayang. Dari dulu sampai sekarang.

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Bila rasa indah, suarakan.
Bila rasa suka suarakan,
Bila rasa tinggi, suarakan,

Sekalipun,
Bila rasa buruk hampas, suarakan.
Bila rasa terpuruk, suarakan.
Bila rasa sakit, suarakan.
Bila rasa malas, suarakan.
Bila rasa benci, suarakan.

Jangan pendam,

Katakan. Lepaskan.

Walau tiada telinga tertadah untuk mendengar.
Walau pada skrin putih berkepala biru,
Walau pada muka surat putih kaku,
Walau pada bunga nan layu,
Walau pada kerasnya batu,
Walau pada dinding berhantu.

Suarakan.

Usah risau terburai kata takut terpecah rahsia.

Asal kita khatam hukum-hakamnya
Asal kita pandai simpan dalam-dalam.

Tapi,
Ada cerita kita perlu simpan sendiri,
Ada pula cerita ceriti kita canang sedunia.

Hakikatnya,

Takkan patah ranting dipijak, Takkan hancur hati dirabak,
Takkan rugi poket dirobek.

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2014.24

Happy New Year! 

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A little update, a little jumbled up days, a little progress

Once, I see a vision. It shows how big a dream can be. And how dreadful it will be when the targets aren’t fulfilled.

But then, all sorts of matters are just don’t seems to be rather helpful yet it came out things became hardly unacceptable. And, undone. Yeah…

It takes me years to come to this level when everything I have been wishing for, was right in front of my eyes. All the stages of life, and all the pickles that comes in between, shows me how it should be and why it shouldn’t be. They may not came out into the right proportion yet it puts me a lot of emotions, tears, feelings and most verily, my unique perceptions.

I see the world, differently. And I interpret all the matters, uniquely. I cannot say I am eccentric, yet I am not mysterious. Maybe that’s the way it should be and happen to be. It all in His Almighty’s wisdom. 

And I see all the bad things happening in this few months, as some punishment for all the mistakes I have done, or a test. I accept it with all wills. 

Hope is still there. I am chasing my big, big dream. I knew it from the start. I shouldn’t keep getting myself down just because of some horrible mishap. 

The beautiful roses doesn’t comes in one go. It takes few stages to become one.They commit everything just to be this such beauty. Including the perils of protecting intruders from picking up the buds. They never knows how the destiny are played. Yet they never lose hope. (MZ, 2013)

Scintillated zenith and beyond!  ^_^

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